To be used

Use me, I beg you
throw me away so I can fall
it's what I want, I was told it's
what I deserve. I trusted.

always helpful, always there
abused kindness of a lonely heart
in pain, no salvation, all alone
shiver…
who cares?

I am your friend, I'll help you
use me, please, I beg you
I have no reason to exist
let me be your tattered tool
broken but try to take what
you can, I let you.

I'm a useless, worthless,
needy, greedy, disgusting
human. Lie.
I can't even die
I'm needed here.
To be used, to help
anything is fine
just make me useful, worthy
it's the only way I can atone
for who I am and what I've done.

I can't help it

love me
attention whore…

breaking

hate me
disgusted
I hate
me

down
punish me, guilty
I deserve
suffering

love me, I beg you,
use me, please

I'll give you my heart
wipe the floor with it
throw it in a thorn bush
burn it
break it down
to bits
shatter me

I hurt you
didn't want to
I'm sorry
I can't help you
I can't

go on
I'll let you
do what you need
time after time
do it again
I like the pain.

Hurt me
I deserve it
I don't care about myself.
I'm useless but I'll try
I'll try not to cry
I'll try to be strong
I knew it all along
that's all I'll ever be good for…

To be used.